On Steroid

My health condition getting worse this morning...but still have the guts to drive and come to office...but i cud only survived till 10am...

drove back straight away to clinic...2 round of nebulizer...just to ease the breathing...apparently...the climate nowadays make it more worse...too hot one day and heavily raining the following day...

ventolin which previously sufficient, no longer enuff...and the doc put me on steroid for 5 days....

that's life aight...just be grateful for what you currently have

A Love So Beautiful

Hari ni MC...tak demam...tp selsema ...quite bad...last wed dah gi klinik, since tak dpt mc still gi ofis semlm...dgn ofice ventilition yg tertutup mcm tu....sampai pening kepala , sbb hidung tersumbat...balik pun lambat...sigh...

so today gi balik klinik...ada wheezing pulak...so dpt lah nebulizer td...n MC...so duk kat umah layan astro...'Indecent Proposal' citer lama...n this is the soundtrack from that movie.......



The summer sun looked down
On our love long ago
But in my heart I feel
The same old afterglow

A love so beautiful in every way
A love so beautiful, we let it slip away

We were too young to understand
To ever know
That lovers drift apart
And that's the way love goes

A love so beautiful
A love so sweet
A love so beautiful
A love for you and me

And I when I think of you
I fall in love again
A love so beautiful in every way

A love so beautiful, we let it slip away
Away

A love so beautiful in every way
A love so beautiful, we let it slip away

Awkward !!!

Just finished a novel which i bought last Monday ..'Who's That Girl' the novel titled...1st few chapters of the novel so-so only...but the rest of it are well written...

I bought the novel last Monday...while waiting for my new friend...(not that new anyway...a month or so) ..we went for a movie actually...it's the second meeting...i'd rather not to call it a 'date'...i don't know...somehow or rather...it didn't 'clicked' if that's how now the youngster used to call it...and people my time would call it 'the chemistry'...

He's quite a reserve type...but while the 'meeting'..he did made the effort to make conversation...but still something was missing...frankly, we barely communicating...not on a daily basis...once or twice a week...sms or via ym...maybe that's another reason why we didn't clicked...

but again..what the heck...we both did clarify on the boundaries even at the very beginning of it...but...last 2 nite..i did mentioned something...which now i felt...awkward...yeah..that's the feeling actually...'I think we can only be friends...' ...yes..that's the statment i gave him....

am i regretting over it ?...i just don't know...but awkward is the right word to describe...thanks to myself...damnnn...

while pouring my emotion in this blog...i heard this song, sung by KD ..not really related to my situation....nor related to anyone...

Soledad....

Lagu ni dulu hit...hmm...6-7 years ago ...tp mmg dah lama tak dengar....

apa yg aku ingat...masa lagu ni hit...mmg time tu tgh ada 'krisis' dgn si dia...bila pikir2 balik...ntah apa2...gaduh sbb perkara2 yg remeh temeh...hahaha...but then again...masa tu still in my early twenties....so bila dengar lagu ni memang feeling habis...nyahahaha...

For old memory sake....

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

It's been a while since the last time i listned to this song....and while driving yesterday...this song played on my fav radio station...



yeah...sometimes love itself just ain't enough....

Suara Rindu

At last...jumpa gak lagu ni...cari bagai nak rak...dramanya dah habis baru jumpa...better late than never... :)

Lirik kene pulak dgn batang hidungku.....hmmmm.......bak kata cik timah..*nanges*


Suatu yang indah
Ceritanya bermula semalam
Andainya dapat ku rasa selamanya

Tetapi ku takut tidak mungkin dapat kumiliki
Walaupun kau hadir hanya dalam mimpi

Ku teruskan hidup
Hari demi hari pun berlalu
Seksa dan derita ku tanggung sendiri

Apa yang tinggal hanyalah
doaku padamu Tuhan
Pasrahku hanya kamu yang menentukan

Pun tak pernah ku sesalkan
Kecewa datang dan pergi
Tinggalku sendiri

Ditakdirkan aku syukur selalu
Sesungguhnya aku tahu
Temanku hanyalah aku

Semoga suatu hari nanti
Dapat ku temui
Penawar dukaku yang berdarah duka
Pabila bertemu pasti aku suarakan rindu
Laguku untukmu buat selamanya

Bitter

..i know eventually u will read this entry....just to expressed my feelings...

I was browsing your bukumuke for that guy pic...and hmmmmmmmmmmm

tetiba aku lak yg ter'emo'....cemaner ? ....despite the lovely smile on your face...obviously...you wudn't know that the smile won't last long...

but again..that's life kan ? which definitely not a bed of roses....

just like we've shared previously....org2 yg banyak gelak, yg selalu buat org ketawa ni lah yg banyak simpan lara...sedih hati tak siapa tahu kan ? i know...we both are strong to face this life....

Closed off from love, i didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain..
Time start to pass before you know it you're frozen...

frozen siot...beku....tp dua-tiga hari ni...tak boleh beku...sbb boiling....ko tau lah naper kan aku boiling....hampehhh...buat BP aku naikkk jerr....g.t.h lah with those people....especially R and P....dig your own grave..welcome to you own funeral...